With 2013 done and over with, I am happy to say I made it out alive. It was touch and go there for the first five months of the year. I was sitting in church last night (yes I do that now) and all of a sudden while listening to the message I had a flashback. A year-in-review kind of flashback. January through May I was struggling with the idea of not living anymore, June-September I'm starting to like life a little bit again and October-December...LOOK OUT! There's a new sheriff in town. Seriously. If someone would have asked me to plan my life from May until now I would have short-changed myself, like a lot.
My childhood was pretty darn cool. I grew up on a 30-acre horse farm, summered in Nantucket, wintered in Florida...you get the picture. I was spoiled. Until the day I had to leave the farm and I thought my life had ended. I spent the next 20 years filling the void with people, places and things that never worked for very long. I just learned a few months ago that the void I had been longing to fill could only be filled by one thing. Not horses, not chocolate, not men, not booze, not any other substance. Only God could have filled that void.
Now let me tell you what my God has done for me lately:
1. Was introduced to horses again, which led to me working on a horse farm, which has led me to living on a horse farm. Um...how many people get the chance to go back to the place in their life where they were most happy and get a "do-over"?
2. Been given a spiritual family that consists of an Owl, a Dr., a nurse, a woman that is as animal crazy as I am and many more...(the owl is a person, that is our code-name for her.)
3. God put a dog in my path that needed companionship as much as I did and as a result I will be learning to train dogs...another life-long dream of mine.
4. I get to serve at my church doing what I do best...social media. Well...being cool is what I do best but being all over Facebook, Twitter and Instagram falls somewhere near the top too.
I mean...if you would have tried to tell me that God loves me 8 months ago I would have rolled my eyes at you and walked away. Today, you tell me God loves me and I'm like, "I KNOOOOOOW RIGHT!!!"
I heard something pretty amazing last night and it goes something like this:
"Wise planning is asking what God desires of you and then you pursue it." -Ed Stetzer
Can I tell you I don't even have to ask what God desires of me sometimes because he just places me in positions to succeed. Places people in my life that just blow my mind (in a good way) and reunite me with people that I have hurt in the past and allows me the opportunity to show them how He has worked in me.
It feels SO good to just Let Go and Let God!
Happy 2014? Absolutely!
